6:34pm Panic

I am having an extreme panic moment. I don't want to lose you. I can't go to India with you, but I can't stay here without you. I don't know what to do and I feel like you don't care and I'm scared that you're non-committal. I'm afraid of how much of my heart I've given to you and how much of it you're going to take with you when you go. I'm afraid of love and forever and being let down and working too hard for someone who won't work has hard for me. I'm scared of time and distance and places I've never been and people I've never met. I'm scared that you'll forget me when you go.